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Dec. 31st, 2012

It's not you. It's me.

Dear coolbluepig,

it was a nice relationship. It was a good what 7(?) 8(?) Years.

You experienced my highs (yung day na nahulog ako sa trike, pumasa akong UPCAT etc) and lows (let us not talk about it). But I guess in order for me to grow, I have to move on.

You have been a good friend. You were always there when I needed to rant to someone and can't find anyone to do rant to (which is mostly the case). You probably know a lot of the things that happened to me, maybe more than most of my friends. You were a nice avenue.

But I just have to move on.

Don't worry, I won't be deleting you. It would still be nice to go back sometime and reminisce all those memories. I'll just be making new memories with someone else now.

It's not you. It's me.

Sincerely,
Mico :')

Dec. 28th, 2012

Sorry

Facebook: "How's it going, Mico?"

It is going well if I don't think about it. And I haven't been for the past week so I could fully enjoy my vacation and the holiday spirit.

Pero "you can run but you can't hide" lang ang peg niya. Just when you are at the top, happy and elated, it creeps on you just to say you should not forget about me. Yuwing naiisip kita masakit. mahirap.

Sorry. Yun lang siguro pwede kong sabihin. Sorry sa mga naapektuhan sa lahat ng pinaggagawa ko. Aakuin ko na lahat ng kasalanan at kamalian na nangyrai, kasi ako naman talaga yan. Sorry kasi kayo ang nakakadama ng repercussions sa mga ginagawa ko. Hindi ko alam paano iexplain sa inyo yung mga nangyari, pero sana alam niyo na ginawa ko ito para sa inyo, para sa atin. Baka nga mali, sa pananaw ng marami. Iintindihin ko, pero sorry. Yun na lang talaga ang kayang sabihin sa inyo ngayon. Dahil kasalanan ko, hayaan niyong ako rin ang mag-ayos nito. Oo, aayusin ko ito, hindi ko kayo hahayaan na maapektuhan pa. Kung paano ko gagawin yun, hindi ko alam talaga. Hindi ko alam. Pero gagawin ko. Sorry.

Jul. 14th, 2012

It is funny...

...How you think I already forgot.

Lakas pa ng loob niyong iinvite ako magsalita. Hindi ko pa rin (at never kong kakalimutan) yung ginawa niyo sa akin. Bitter na kung bitter, pero masakit lang talaga.

...How you said I was not enough.

Ayaw ko magyabang, pero 2 project ko ang tinuloy niyo. I do not take full credit of those projects, but I still started them. Pinundar ko pagod ko diyan tapos hindi pa pala yun sapat. Haha. Nakakatawa.

p.s. I just want you to know na halos once a week ako magtsinelas at shorts, bihira na ako magpost sa fb at twitter ng rants, at bago na ang belt ko. kasi diba sabi ko sa iyo, kaya kong magbago para sa mahal ko. :D

...you got mad at me for expressing my feelings because it was detrimental to you

when your active people kept on doing that to other people. Pag kayo ang nakikitaan ng masama hindi ok, pero pag iba ok lang? labo rin bro.

Nakamove on na ako. Pero masakit lang talaga. haha.

Jan. 26th, 2012

Because I can't tell you in person.

Gusto ko ito. This is what I want and I believe this is my talent. I am not good at any sport, I am neither a singer nor a dancer, I speak (and maybe entertain) well but I think this is the where I am best at.

This is something I love to do, since 5th grade if you remember. I may have not won all the time (I think I only won 50% of the time). But I still do it. Because I can, Because I love it.

I understand that you do not want to see me get hurt again because of losing. Last year was horrible. VERY HORRIBLE But I have moved on. Last year taught me a lesson, I will never give up. I will fall but I will stand up again. I hope this is the real reason why you won't allow me. I hope.

But hear me out

This is what I love doing. Serving. Didn't you encourage us to do things we like? Isn't that the reason why you did not force her to stop dancing? because she loves it and she enjoys it? This is my dance, this is my ballet. I know it's hard, it's difficult, it's stressful. We see her getting bruised, getting tired but she still continues. Ganun din ako. Kahit madapa ako along the way, kahit natalo na ako time and time again, ayaw kong sumuko. Lalaban ako kasi ito ang nagpapasaya sa akin. This is what I want to do.

It was never about resume or credentials, It was something I really like and love. An avenue for me to be able to do something new, something different, something that can help others.

Hear me out. Please. I do not wish to continue without your blessings, but please hear me out. This is what I love, this is what I am passionate for.

I Love You.

Jan. 12th, 2012

sawa na akon

lagi na lang. Hindi ko alam kung balit pero lagi na lang. Pauulit-ulit na.

Paghihirapan mo. Aasa ka. Mawawala sa iyo.

Ang masmasaklap, laging ako sa grupo ang nawawalan. Lord, help me understand why.

Pagod na akong paghirapan ang isang bagay at mawawala lang din pala sa akin.

Dec. 31st, 2011

December 31, 2011 92 Truths

Dito natin ipost for fun lang

NAME: Ramon Miguel Concepcion Panis
AGE: 20
BIRTHDATE: September 26, 1991
PRESENT ADDRESS: Paranaque City

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.


WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = Water
2. last phone call = Kay mama
3. last text message = Kay Vlad.
4. last song you listened to = PBB Theme Song
5. last time you cried = PBB Episode nung family visit

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = NO
7. been cheated on = NO
8. kissed someone & regretted it = NO
9. lost someone special = YES
10. been depressed = YES
11. been drunk and threw up = NO but i want to para lang maexperience

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. BLUE
13. BLACK
14. WHITE

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = YES
16. Fallen out of love = NO
17. Laughed until you cried = YES
18. Met someone who changed you = YES
19. Found out who your true friends were = YES LIKE CRAZY
20. Found out someone was talking about you = YES
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = NO

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 90%
24. Do you have any pets = YES
25. Do you want to change your name = NO
26. What did you do for your last birthday = CIEM INTERVIEW :>
27. What time did you wake up today = 11 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = KAKAUWI LANG GALING SA BINGO
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = THAT
30. Last time you saw your Mother = 5 HOURS AGO
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = THAT
32. What are you listening to right now = SPIEL NI TONI SA PBB
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = NOPE
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = THAT
35. Most visited webpage = FACEBOOK
37. Nickname = MICO
38. Relationship Status = SINGLE
39. Zodiac sign = LIBRA
40. He or She = He
41. Elementary = INTERNATIONAL CHRISTIAN ACADEMY
42. High School = INTERNATIONAL CHRISTIAN ACADEMY
43. College = University of the Philippines Diliman
44. Hair color = BLACK
45. Long or short = Ang alin? haha
46. Height = 5'8"?
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = :D
48. What do you like about yourself? = LAHAT
49. Piercings = None
50. Tattoos = NONE
51. Righty or lefty= Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = circumcision
53. First piercing = never
54. First best friend = sa bus ni tito bernard
55. First sport you joined = swimming
56. First vacation = La Union
58. First pair of trainers = ewan

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = Nope
60. Drinking = None
61. I'm about to = Play Monopoly Deal
62. Listening to = Jive Song sa PBB
63. Waiting for = Media Noche

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = ye
65. Get Married? =YES!
66. Career?= Let's see what i want

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = EYES
68. Hugs or kisses = HUGS
69. Shorter or taller = SHORTER
70. Older or Younger = YOUNGER
71. Romantic or spontaneous = ROMANTIC
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = NICE ARMS
73. Sensitive or loud = SENSITIVE
74. Hook-up or relationship = RELATIONSHIP
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Ewan

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = NO
77. Drank hard liquor = YES
78. Lost glasses/contacts = YES HELLO ALY!
79. Sex on first date = NO
80. Broke someone's heart = My Heart. ano daw?
81. Had your own heart broken = refer to previous question
82. Been arrested = NO
83. Turned someone down = NO
84. Cried when someone died = YES
85. Fallen for a friend = YES

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = at times, lately no
87. Miracles = YES
88. Love at first sight = NO
89. Heaven = YES
90. Santa Claus = YES!
91. Kiss on the first date = NO
92. Angels =YES

Dec. 18th, 2011

Love Story

Bilang ang daming nagpopost ng love story ako rin. :))

Hindi ko akalain na magugustuhan kita at mamahalin ng sobra sobra. First Day of college, actually enrollment, nung una kitang nakita. Sabi ko WOW. ang galing. ang ganda. nagustuhan kita. Lumipas ang first year ko na lagi lang kitang nakikita, lahat ng ginagawa mo naamaze ako, lalo akong humanga sa iyo.

Second Year, formally tayong pinakilala. formal-formalan pa nun. Lalo akong humanga sayo. Ang galing-galing mo kasi talaga. Dami mong nagagawa, ang sarap mo pang kasama. Kaya naman sinabi kong gagalaw na ako. Siya ngang ginawa ko, gumalaw, dumamoves, nag-payoff.

Third Year, Ang saya. Kasama na kita. Pero siyempre kapalit nito eh matinding paghihirap din. Hindi naman lahat perpekto. May times na ginusto na kitang iwana. Puyat ako madalas dahil sa iyo. Late na nakakauwi. IBANG LEVEL NG STRESS ang naramdaman ko. Pero kapalit ng lahat na hirap na iyan super enjoy ako. As in like yeah. Like Crazy. Like Jagger. (hehehe awitan, dulaan) Ginusto kong samahan pa kita ng mas matagal.

Pero sadyang iniwan mo ako. Tadhana nga naman. Andito na lang ako at pinagmamasdan ka. Chinecheer pa rin kita at suportado sa lahat ng ginagawa mo. Masaya ako at masaya ka.

Ewan na lang. :))

Oct. 29th, 2011

Pinoy Big Brother Unlimited!

magfefeeling importanteng critic ako ng PBB kasi gusto ko. :P

kakatapos lang ng The Big Fiesta ng PBB Unlimited at can i just day pasabog si Big Brother today! Allow me to say my thoughts on things about Big Brother

Housemates
Good Job! We finally have an interesting mix, super iba-iba. Casting improvement to Big Brother. Gone are the artistahin housemates of season 2 and back to the diverse filipino personalities of season 1. Probably the best mix of housemates to date. hindi sila lahat artistahin, hindi sila lahat 20 something years old. Iba-iba sila. from rich guy to self confessed magnanakaw. from anak ng celebrity to first open lesbian housemate.

TwistS

ang daming twist ni kuya tonight pa lang

Reseved Housemates
Good idea, bad execution. Ewan kung pano pa sana naimprove pero ewan. Good idea nonetheless

Mole
LOVE IT! I personally wish ako yung naging mole sa loob ng bahay.

Secret Area
I knew there was going to be something like this, but the details about this I am still not sure. asan yung tinatagong housemate?

HOUSE
Ok hindi ko pa alam ang general theme, pero may poor side ang house. Iniisip ko kung magkakaroon ba ng rich and poor side later on. Or mawawala totally yung poor side. Ayaw kong sabay sila kasi i honestly think thats one of the worst twists ever created. HMs battle to be in the rich side others are at the poor side. Sana hindi ganun. sana pag nawala yung poor side wala na siya forever.

Super bitin ng opening. hindi ko nakita yung true house and true confession room. pero magaling na tactic at least madaming magiging interested.

SUPER EXCITED NA AKONG MAGING HOUSEMATE NEXT SEASON

Oct. 24th, 2011

you

worthless piece of crap. akala mo kung sino ka. wala ka naman kwenta. tama nga lang kung nasan ka. pero baka naman iba magiging galaw mo kung nandun ka. hindi naman kasi eto ang gusto mo talaga eh. tangina mo. sana mawala ka na. hindi ka naman talaga magaling eh, akala mo lang. kaya ka nga hindi binigyan ng ano eh. gusto mo lang kaya ka pinagbigyan hindi ka naman talaga magaling. akala mo galing galing mo, wala namang kwenta pinaggagawa mo. feelingero ka.

Oct. 23rd, 2011

rant number xxxxxxxx

i rant again. sorry nagiging venue for ranting na lang itong blog na toh. Pretty useless to readers (if there are any), very useful to me haha.

Napadaan nanaman sa isip ko kung paano kung ako yung nandun? malamang sa malamang iba ang nangyari. Ewan ko kung mas ok o hindi pero iba. nageenjoy pa ako.

Ito siguro ang consequence ng heartbroken ka sa first love mo. Ang hirap. you went for something na hindi mo unang minahal. Mahal ko pa rin siya, pero admittedly hindi na kasing mahal nung dati.

Lord tulungan mo ako.

Sep. 17th, 2011

bakit lagi na lang ako?

bakit parang natataon lagi sa akin?

Jul. 24th, 2011

PMS.



Ladies and Gentlemen I present to you the PRIME SLATE 2011 or PRIME MALANDING SLATE (PMS) as we call ourselves. Why the name? Long story. :P

A conversation I had just minutes ago made me reminisce with one of the most fun groups I have been a part of. January 2011 when we first got to see each other and meet formally. Training di ko pa sila masyadong kilala. It was just the usual campaign training and usually I just remember them from their campaign taglines. Hindi ko alam kung paano at saan nagsimula pero nagclick kaming lahat and we bonded.

Our bond was totally unexpected. kasi from previous year hindi kami ganun kaclose as a slate. This weirdos made me look forward to training kasi althought it meant harsh words from trainers, their company made it easy (kadiri cheesy)

By campaign time, I ended up bullying each one of them at least one. In my books, pagnabubully kita close na tayo. HAHAHA.

The bond did not end campaign, natapos na ang election at lahat close pa rin kami. We had occasinal lunches, May isang labas din na nagawa, Nakapgovernight kami nung bakasyon. Wala lang ang saya pa rin nila kasama.

PMS. I may not be with you as much as I want to be, pero know na andito lang ako pag kelangan niyo ng MICO HUG. Ng kausap. Or ng Mambubully sa inyo. :P I MISS YOU SLATE >:D
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Jun. 22nd, 2011

must accept, let go and move on. MUST.

bahala na kung may makabasa at magkwento, kelangan ko lang ilabas.

nalulungkot ako. as in super. nung una nageexpect pa ako, tapos naghohohope pero ngayon ata dapat neither na. I think i have to start setting my mind to go another path, and not the path i originally wished and wanted to go through. Nakakalungkot na second choice path ang tatahakin ko. Masgusto ko talaga yung original.

It's weird how much I want this pero nung high school, I wasn't even considering this. Nung high school si second option lang ang rurok ng mga pangarap ko.

Masakit isipin na dapat ako talaga yun. Kung hindi lang nangyari ang series of unfortunate events na nangyari, hindi ko toh prinoproblema at pinagkakaemo-han. AKO DAPAT YUN. (or at least yun ang pinaniwala nila sa akin). masakit na magsisinungaling ako para lang makuha nila yung gusto ko.

LIFE.

Gusto kong magpresenta pero ang kapal lang ng mukha ko kung ganun. POTEK.

lagi na lang akong one-step away sa mga bagay-bagay. nakakalungkot. nakakasawa.

Mar. 6th, 2011

rant.

unworthy. like i dont deserve it. like napilitan lang ata sila. na mukhang tama pala ang mga nangyari. AMP.

Feb. 28th, 2011

(no subject)

this entry may be days late, pero tingin ko kelangan ko ito para maka move on.

For some reason bitter pa rin ako. Feeling ko tanggap ko na ang pagkatalo ko pero kung paano ako natalo, hindi pa. Masakit sa damdamin na sa aming 5 sa slate ko ako lang ang nalaglag, masakit na silang 4 umabot ng 1000 votes ako 872 lang, masakit na makita ko silang nagmemeeting na hindi ako kasama (feeling ko dapat andun ako).

kung paano nangyari ang mga nangyari, hindi ko alam. May mga theory, oo, pero siyempre hindi yun sigurado.

Aaminin ko, hindi ko inexpect na matatalo ako. Bakit? lahat ng tinanungan ko sabi mananalo ako eh; sino ba naman ako para hindi iyon paniwalaan? Alumni, mga hindi ko kaclose sila ang nagsasabi, edi ako siyempre super saya. Kaso hindi pala nagkatotoo.

Pinaghirapan ko din tong campaign na ito, masineffortan ko toh kesa last year. walang absent, iilang late, ilang beses pinagalitan/pinagsabihan sa bahay. kaso wala rin pala.

Sabi nila madaming opportunities na masmaganda, sabi ko ano pang masmaganda dito? abangan na lang natin.

ay ewan.

basta bitter pa rin ako. Hello Life.

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